So I have decided to create a blogger, which marks the beginning of my online journal life.
Sure, MySpace and Facebook are all well and good, but I don't really have much privacy or anonymity over there, and the thought of people who I know well in real life being able to lurk my profile and see what I'm writing and thinking about to other people is just too much stress for me to handle.
And that's where this online journal kicks in. I need a place where I can let myself go and not be afraid of judgement, not be afraid of rejection, and not be afraid of being yelled at or made fun of. Being able to have a place for me, and only me. To start off the new year with a new life, with a new perspective. Yes, it does seem late to be saying a 'new year', though I have only recently come back home from a long holiday during my break, and I've been thinking about creating an online journal for months, years even, and at this point in time, it just feels "right".
Basically, what I'm hoping to accomplish in the next couple of days is to let my true thoughts, questions and feelings come out. I want to be able to get things out in the open and to lift that rotten old burden off my back which I've been carrying around literally for years. And occasionally, the odd, completely unrelated post here and there.
I want to start out fresh. I want to stop thinking negatively and start thinking positively. I want to be able to feel happiness. To not feel alone. I need to learn to love myself, no matter how difficult it is, or how hard it will get.
My personal quote for the past two or so years has been:
What I am hoping to do is to change that quote which I have been living by, or more importantly, see it in a different light and approach it with the attitude of "Life is hard, but I can get through it." rather than denying my negativity by arming myself with a mask that says "I'm a realist", because I know that I have a lot more things to learn, and a lot more to understand and accept as reality.
If anyone does happen to read this, feel free to comment, so I know if anyone is here or not.
Well, this is it.
Let's see where this online journal takes me..
Sure, MySpace and Facebook are all well and good, but I don't really have much privacy or anonymity over there, and the thought of people who I know well in real life being able to lurk my profile and see what I'm writing and thinking about to other people is just too much stress for me to handle.
And that's where this online journal kicks in. I need a place where I can let myself go and not be afraid of judgement, not be afraid of rejection, and not be afraid of being yelled at or made fun of. Being able to have a place for me, and only me. To start off the new year with a new life, with a new perspective. Yes, it does seem late to be saying a 'new year', though I have only recently come back home from a long holiday during my break, and I've been thinking about creating an online journal for months, years even, and at this point in time, it just feels "right".
Basically, what I'm hoping to accomplish in the next couple of days is to let my true thoughts, questions and feelings come out. I want to be able to get things out in the open and to lift that rotten old burden off my back which I've been carrying around literally for years. And occasionally, the odd, completely unrelated post here and there.
I want to start out fresh. I want to stop thinking negatively and start thinking positively. I want to be able to feel happiness. To not feel alone. I need to learn to love myself, no matter how difficult it is, or how hard it will get.
My personal quote for the past two or so years has been:
"Looking at the dark side of things/life isn't being pessimistic. It's being realistic."
What I am hoping to do is to change that quote which I have been living by, or more importantly, see it in a different light and approach it with the attitude of "Life is hard, but I can get through it." rather than denying my negativity by arming myself with a mask that says "I'm a realist", because I know that I have a lot more things to learn, and a lot more to understand and accept as reality.
If anyone does happen to read this, feel free to comment, so I know if anyone is here or not.
Well, this is it.
Let's see where this online journal takes me..
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